Does anyone hear

Normally, I don't blog twice in one day but I feel the need to.

If anyone who reads this just thinks I am whining and crying like a wimp; you are entitled to your opinion and think what you will about me.

My Mom was right when she told me this world doesn't have to be fair.  I truly do know that we all are really alone in this life and have to do the best we can with what we have with what we got.  I believe those things really are truths of the reality of life.

And even though I normally cringe inside when I hear the statements: "God doesn't give you more than you can handle" and "Things happen for a reason", I have my doubts but I believe they are truths about the reality of life also.

But I am just at the point where I feel that no one is really listening to me I have explained to my Dr., Section 8 counselor, landlord and even Amanda that I know that I can no longer handle living alone and none of them seem to be REALLY, REALLY listening.

And it hurts me, angers me, frustrates me and I feel like I am at the end of the rope so to speak.

I write this now because Amanda said to me "Well, if the Dr. won't write the note, I'll just have to move out." Just like she doesn't want to but it is no big deal. It is more than a big deal to me. But no one seems to be hearing me.

Don't get me wrong, if the very worst comes down and I have to live alone again; I will find a way to do so.  I have gotten through worse.

Mom said I am like the rotor rooter of life I just take in the crap and keep on going.

What really bothers me right now is that people seem to be listening but no one seems to be really HEARING me and really caring about me.

It is most likely selfish that I feel this way.  But is that not something every one of us has gone through at one time or another?

Being human is never easy and the challenges seem overwhelming some times.

I am very overwhelmed and I don't know how I will make it.

And God, if you are listening and hearing.  Please help.