Government enforced solitude.

I haven't really had a chance to write during the last month because I am adjusting to having a "family".

In my last posting I wrote,'' I don't want Amanda to leave at all. She and her son have helped me mentally, physically and emotionally. There have been plenty of moments where it has felt like having a family of my own. And this situation may be the only way that I will have to feel like I have a family of my own.

I want to be there for her as she gets her life together. I want to see her son, Wyatt grow up and see what kind of person he will become.  I would like to have some influence in his life and I would like to be a positive role model in his life.

I want to experience the closest thing to a daily family life that I will probably ever have available to me. I want to have a life with people I truly love and care about.

I want to learn how to live and care about something other than just me."

All that is even more true today then when I originally posted it.  I am very thoroughly enjoying having Amanda and her son here and they feel more like family with each passing day.

There is only one problem with the situation and it has little to do with Amanda and Wyatt.  I having been living in an apartment with the aide of Section 8. I contacted them a few weeks ago to inform them of the situation and to see what could be done to legally have roommates.

I guess it was silly or naive for me to believe that they could be pro-rated  (I think that is the right term) into my lease.  That seemed like a simple enough solution to me. I understand and completely agree that the government should not have to pay for someone who is living with me.

But I don't think that I should be forced to be alone either. And that seems to be what they want. When I called Section 8 I was told that I would have to have a Dr's  note saying that it is medically NECESSARY for me to have a live in care taker.  I went to the Dr's office and he wrote a note saying "that it would be BENEFICIAL for me to have a live in caretaker."

I have not injured myself in a few years since I sprained my ankle transferring from my wheelchair to my bed. But it is honestly getting more difficult to go from the wheelchair to bed or wheelchair to tub.  I feel a lot more comfortable having a spotter now.  So from that standpoint the Dr. is technically correct.

But for Section 8's purposes "beneficial" is not good enough.

I honestly do believe it is medically necessary for me to have someone living with me for mental and emotional purposes.  From what I can remember I think I moved out of my parent's house in August 1984.  Since then I have probably lived with another person for a total of 11/2-2 years total.

I don't know if anyone who may read this will understand.  Almost 30 years of living alone is too much for me.  I try my best to get out of the apartment everyday.  I have some friends and during the daytime I am OK. But I don't get out at night too much.  And, believe it or not that has become too much for me.

I am not asking for pity, I'm not asking for special consideration.

At the moment, it is not financially feasible for Amanda and I to move. I actually want to move so I don't live next to a four lane road.  With my Social Security and Amanda's part time job we can't afford to stay here.

Why does it have to be a medically necessary situation? Why can't there be a practical solution?

I understand an agency wanting to have responsible people they are helping. But Amanda passed a background check, why isn't that good enough?

For now all I know to do is go back to the Dr. and see if he will help.

Seventy dollars for another Dr's visit WITH Medicaid.  Thanks President Obama, you're no help at all.