Dream/reality

For a number of years now I have enjoyed reading Alternative History novels. They are novels where the author takes a historical time period and alters the course of history.

My favorite series of these types of novels so far is Harry Turtledove's, "The World War Saga". In this four novel series Mr Turtledove explores what would have happened if during a pivotal moment during World War II aliens had invaded earth in an effort to conquer the planet.

I believe that I have always been fascinated with "what if..." possibilities.

I really do believe that there are moments in all our lives that if we had done things a little differently, or made different decisions our life paths would have been different.

For me I believe the first life altering moment was at birth; and not just because of the obvious reason.  For those of you who may be reading this and may not know: I was born with Cerebral Palsy.

I have done research through the years into what Cerebral Palsy is.  And I recall some conversations with my Mom about what may have happened.

I have read and heard CP be called an "accident of birth". To actually know specifically what happened at the moment I was born is, of course, impossible.  The speculation is that when the Dr. reached in (probably with forceps) to remove me from my mother he most likely twisted my neck to the point that my nervous system was greatly impacted.  That is the theory that I most readily believe and accept. I have been told a couple other theories but they don't make sense and they are not conducive to the point I am actually trying to make.

If what I believe about my birth is true and things had happened differently who knows what I would have been. Maybe I would be the Major League pitcher I always want to be. Maybe the modern day Sandy Koufax, (I am convinced I would have been a lefty no matter what).

What I find interesting is that these "what if?..." scenarios  seem to come alive in my dreams.

For anyone who has read my writings the last few days (thanks for the few who have) my new roommate and best friend Amanda has been on my mind a lot. Last night/this morning I had a dream that we were married with four kids and a house with a nice porch. As with most dreams I son't remember much more than that.  But it was one of the best dreams I have had in a long time.

Now if I could just go back and time and fix whatever needs to be changed to make it come true.

Anybody got a DeLorean (I hope that is the right car) I can use?